hey everyone.
after my computer crashed yesterday i wasn’t sure if i’d get this issue out to you today, but GUESS WHAT? everyone napped forever and i did it! hope you enjoy this week’s issue and as always, feel free to hit reply to this email if you wanna share your own perspective, or comment below.
much love,
g + c
I've Arrived... As Much As I Ever Will
By Gabby Llewellyn
Be honest.
Is there a small part of you that still thinks of your “deconstruction journey” as a spiritual problem to be solved? That in the proverbial spiritual landscape of “peaks” and “valleys”, you’re wading through the valley and waiting for the fog to lift? Are you several years into this wondering when you’re going to “arrive” at a place that feels less vulnerable to share with your Christian friends?
It’s taken until this past year (seven years into my own deconstruction journey) to realize… I’m never going to get there. Because there is no there.
I think because on some level, I thought that eventually, if I just was faithful enough to wrestle through my doubts and questions, I’d arrive somewhere that felt super solid. That it eventually would feel like the concreteness of my faith before, where there were a set list of answers for having faith and living life I could settle back into like a cozy hobbit hole.